i just feel like reviving my blog, because i had not been talking to someone about myself recently.

went Alicia's house today to celebrate Aaron's birthday in advance!
played mahjong! ^^ i belly nong never pray riaos!! :)
won a few bucks but baby lost $15 so i helped him to cover!!
catch up with many people, and finally see my Rach Laopo!! <3
left early cos need to go home and pack for,

THAILAND TRIP!!! ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^
will be going for 5 days :) me happygirl93@hotmail.com :D

yesterday quarrelled with baby boy again :(
hais, over such rival matters. PLAYING A BALL CAN BECOME A QUARREL.
jia liat a not? :(
cried cried cried, i thought we understand each other but actually not.
i admire those old couples, because they have been giving in for 40/50/60/70 years.
how about us? 4 years also bu dao. hais :(
hope baby boy and i don't quarrel over such things anymore!!

okay, my first post for after 1 million years, shall go browse for blogskins!!
need a new look!!! :)

今天是我和你分手的第1天，
日子还是一样，我还是上学了，
上学时，并没有任何不开心，只是觉得手机比以前安静很多。
再也看不到你的SMS，也不知道你在做什么，只知道告诉自己你在睡觉好让自己不去想你。

我想你或许会看到我的blog,

我不知道为什么昨天会和你分手，
也许我真的累了，
也许你也没那么爱我，
也许我们之间少了些什么。

今天，我好想你。 :(

i'm so disappointed at this moment ):

do we really have to quarrel until we have to think about breAk-ups to solve it?
it's isnt simple to maintain a relationship,
and i hope you know this.

sometimes, even the simplest text to ask, 'baby, where are you? do you need me to fetch you?' could be the sweetest things, but it's been so long since you do all this.
is it because of busy life so both of us forget about this kind of things?
i dont know, i dont know, i dont know.

even when you apologise, you dont sound sincere anymore...
you asked me to teach you how to dote on me,
but you aint a robot, and i cant teach you all this,
i'm sorry.

but love isn't about giving,
sometimes, you need to learn to give more instead of receiving.


i'm just very very disappointed............


1.36AM
1 May 2010

this post might not be very interesting,

tomorrow is our anniversary,
we both had forgotten much about it, we didn't celebrate for a few months.
but tomorrow, i'm giving baby a lil surprise (:
i'm going to paste letters of hearts at his bedroom,
and then give him a PiPi (:
i shall take lots of pic tmrw!

maybe this 2 coming 3 years,
or 3 years coming 4 years,
there was too much for me to remember.
there was of course, heartbreaks. but there was also moments that i wish to remember forever.
those who know baby, would know he used to smoke,
he used to ignore our relationship, he used to be very stubborn,
he used to being alone, he used to threatens to break, he used to be very bad towards me,
he used to do harsh things, he used to speak harshly, he used to put his friends infront of me, he used to not used to me.

sometimes during our h2h talks, i would ask baby,
baby why did you change so much?
what he replied was really touching,
'you changed me baby. last time i didnt know how to think, if it wasnt you. i dont think i will remain as who i am now'

he changed, he changed to someone who know how to care about my feelings,
he changed to someone that would accompany me to go out, go shopping, go school,
he changed to someone that put me in front of his friends,
he changed to someone that isnt him(in a better way),
he changed to someone that thinks of the past,
he changed to someone that would regret,
he changed to someone even better than what i expected.

maybe all those break-ups in between us make us even stronger.

it could probably be baby really grew up,
and thank god, he's still mine.

we still have a long way to go baby,
i wont give you up (:

happy anniversary my baby!
i forget how many years how many months how many days,
but it's still all right!
we still love each other!


*please cry when you see this post ( i know you will )
love you!

my baby,
i'm back to blogging!
haha, hope by 19th april (next week) and i get my lappy,
i would be blogging more often!!!! because it's too tiring to sit infront of a desktop and think of what you wanna blog ):

went for orientation for past 3 days,
i'm in the class IT1007!
great friends inside, just need to get to know each other better!
the class has only 19 ppl, sucha small class, i'm not used to it!
and i'm very troubled, because idk what to wear to sch everyday!!!!
shorts, tees, shorts, dress!!!!!
need to go shopping ^^ (winks)

after orientation,
it's also a sick week for me!!!!
i haven been seeing baby for the past few days,
i'm not used to going in the sun anymore, ):
need to exerciseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee already! but it's not happening at all.

ok, need to do a lot of things,
cut hair, buy shoes and clothes, buy lappy!!!
so broke ):

anw, i dont think anyone still rmb my plan!
it's going to be a successful one on tues!!



baby i love you a lot! (:

i actually intended to post yesterday, plus change my blogskin.
but i think all it's just too troublesome,
so i just close the window. hah!

anyway, i'm back to the working life,
no mahjong, no shopping, no life, no life and no life.
i dont even touch the computer when i'm at home,
i'm would be so tired to even watch tv ):
let's think about the future.. (for awhile)
if i'm having a 9-6 job,
i wont have time for boyfriends, my girls, family and of cus some time for clubbing and shopping,
last but not least, mahjonggggggggggg :/
how to even mention time for babies if i'm holding such jobs!!!!
kkkkkk, i shall study hard and be like my big boss (of Noel),
have a chauffeur to drive me around, ^^

i just read my fat(chiew chen fang)'s blog,
and i saw her struggling so hard in JCs,
i remember her telling me that she's afraid she cannot adapt to JC's life,
because she isn't as hardworking as (the real kids out there),
don't be afraid girl! you just have to xin ku this 2 years,
half a year has already gone, you can do it!
and you still have meeeeeeee, please don't forget me!
*hugs and kisses* *big watery kiss! muacks muacks!*

i really hates it when ppl call Noel's hotline,
and just blurt out everything.
you call Mac's delivery you also gotta wait for them to greet you first right?
and you need to give them information before you order right,
typical singaporeans lehsssssss!!!! :@
angry you know!

i'm finding another part time job,
maybe @ shaw centre, or @ popular with B :D
hope we can work together, just have to wait for B's call when he wake up! (:
haven been real texting with him because either i'm too busy with work,
or he's busy out there. eeewwww, sucks this feelings ):

kk, bye! (:

I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each others dreams, we can be together all the time.

who say there is forever?

once you're angry @ something,
just forget it.

It's my first day @ work,
haaaaahaaaaa!
working from 15/3 to 31/3 (:
more $$$$$!

went J8 with baby yesterday,
wanted to go Novena, but it was too late because we need to meet GuoHao & Andy around 2 plus,
so we had Swensens!!! Baby's going there for interview later on,
LOL!! so next time i have free swensens!!! (:
then he went to buy PICARD wallet siol!! upgrade liao,
he no longer buy pasa malam goods. hahaha!

I AM SO BORED AND I POST LIKE SHIT. @#*(&@ *#9&*# $(^

why i keep blogging but no one's tagging me! ):



anyway, the family is planning to go THAILAND again in June!

muhahaha, i should probably start saving so that i can join them in June!

i wish i can celebrate my birthday there too!

but fat hope, my birthday is no longer in holis for poly... :C

hope this year, my birthday celebration would still be like last year,

where there is chalet and many many people!

still quite longgggggggggg :B



went down to Basketball court yesterday,

mainly to talk to Regina about NYP stuff,

will be going to the poly clinic or hospital for check up tmr,

and head to NYP to apply bursary and stuff,

but we ended up talking about chalet and other stuff with Jesslyn, Andy, Hazel, Uncle & Baby.

hope nothing crops up!

and they like to talk a lot of crap, ESP ANDY! hahaha.

hope Baby still allows me to go down sometimes and not to stay @ home and rot.



watching Being Human with Baby tmr,

hehehe.

and today's DADDY birthday!

happy birthday! (:

Currently @ Noel WORKING!
gonna start even earlier,
which is continuously from 15 March onwards,
Farhana is teaching me NEW stuff, which is confirming fax orders,
which probably make my existence good enough, haaaaaahaaaaa.

just left few more weeks to a POLY student life,
i'm not really well prepared,
not to say, i have not even submitted the online enrollment when the due date is this Thurs,
so many things to do,
healthcheck, CPF, tuition grant, lappy....
tsktsk!!! why is the enrollment so troublesome,
why not use the way like we used to enroll in primary school,
that's so easy & simple!!!!
haissss D:

yesterday a h2h talk with baby,
felt so good & touched!
baby said he wants to be engaged before he goes into Army,
haha! just hope by that time my parents will be able to accept him.
why isnt he like this last time, if not we would probably be counting towards our 5th year!!
but thank god, he's fine now.
he said that if it wasnt me, he would have become like another person,
which is real bad ):
but luckily, my petty comes in hand! haaaahaaaa!!
just hope we arent so lucky when we go out around AMK,
so many ppl saw us!!!!! so dao mei!!! D:

chalet's coming, :D
wee, hope it would be successful! and no quarrels between me & B!!!!!

meeting Regina Tonight! and maybe B too, @ bbc!

okays, (L)

back from Hatyai quite some times ago,
haha, but still i still feel home when i'm there.
i enjoyed myself a lot a lot,
and tend not to think of those unnecessarily things,
bought a lot a lot of things, and of course did praying for half a day.
don't you agree with me Thailand is so beautiful?

shall go take up Thai language courses when i'm older!!
i want to go again, and again!!!! (:

and of course, on 26 feb, it was their last day @ Noel.
worked thru 2 seasons with them,
they knew how to skive most of the times! haha,
not to forget those times that we shared among ourselves those idiotic customers,
those very very rude ah pek,
those GQ's indian customers complaining,
of course not to forget Ivan's betting on every football matches.
will be starting work again on Mon,
alone, no longer with this 2 big brothers.
hope there's still someone for me to complain to!!!










didn't manage to meet my girls yesterday,
so sorry ):
i still miss you guys!!
*Love*











and of course,
i'm still waiting for my lappy to come!!!!!!!

how i wish i would lost my passport or something when i go to Thailand tmr,
just hope i will never come back to ______.

why does unhappy things have to pop out when we're going overseas,
it's not like we're rich,
it just that we need to take a break.
we need to do something to rest our mind,
why can't you just understand this?
do you know it's very hard for us to communicate?
i just don't know how to face this.
i really hope i would save enough to go thai in another 10 years.
i don't wanna even stay here anymore.
it's just so painful to think of everything that's happening.

maybe what B said was correct,
i did not face enough of this.
that's why everytime when something happen,
i feel so down,
and almost got a break down.
but luckily, B is still here for me.
i love you.
thanks for the nice heart2heart talk in the bus,
i really appreciate it a lot.
you make me love you even more,
this relationship, i'm definitely not going to let go.
thanks dear,
i don't know what to say more than thank you.

I'll be back soon, you won't have time to miss me. Look after my heart--Ive left it with you.

-- Edward Cullen, Twilight

i hope my future hubby:

• is a half-Thai, or must love Thailand like i do!
• love me more than i love him!
• put me at 1st place!!
• cook 3 meals, plus supper and dessert for me everyday!
• do housework!!!
• drive!!!!
• takecare of the children plus the family!
• funny and humorous
• give my bouquet of flowers every anniversary
  
• love surprises!
• smart!!!
• tall, and muscular! with a bit of fat tummy!
• bring me wherever i want to go!
• sleep after i fall asleep
• hold my hand and let me sleep on him every night
• buy me gucci bags

i know this kind of guys doesnt exist anymore!
LOL!!!!!!!

Here's a update on my blog! i'll try to update as much as i can,
because working life isnt very interesting,
unless you get some funny, frustrating customers or colleagues.

heard from baby that time we met that he would peek at my blog sometimes,
so i decided to blog and surprise him! :D
for this coming 2010, i wish i can be with you forever.
tho there are super duper maxxxx much of quarrels, but still, i love you a lot baby :D
i knew some quarrels could had been avoid, but still.
girls are girls and boys are boys!
just hope everything's going smoothly this year for us.
last but not least,
i need to thank you! :D i knew you care, just that you dont know how to show.
hope that no misunderstanding could end our relationship.
loveloveloveloveloves to the max! :D

okays, poly life is coming real soon.
i think i shuld probably be okay with it,
im looking forward but not looking forward at the same time to poly life.
IT MEANS MORE OF LAPPY TIME BUT MORE OF PROJECT!
and gotta think of what to wear to school everyday!!
just hope everything's real fine for me in school, :D

just another thought, i dont really want a 9-6 job anymore.
it's boring, and doesnt give me any time for my love ones.
especially the girls and the 407 clique.
i know many ppl are starting to miss me (*smile*)
anyway, job ends in feb. so faster book me!
or else im going to plan my one week(i hope) thailand trip wit my mum or tan beewen! :D
what happens in march?
nah, just probably take up a ntuc job at hub.
HAHAHA.

hope those jc-ians are doing well out there!
im starting to miss ppl,
esp my FATTYCHIEWCHENFANG, and not to forget, jin :D
and of course my girls! tzy, nico, kim, beau, rox....

i promise i would blog 3 times a day once i get my lappy! it's so stiffy to sit in front of a desk top.
pfffff.


once again, work tmr,
calling out to customers again ):






TATA!

Sunday Picnic Trip: (updated on 22/1)


time: meet amk mrt station @ 9am
venue: ecp/ marina barriage

peeps that will be going:
(confirm ones are BOLD)
Constance
Jin
ChenFang (until 4pm)
Kangrui
Edwin
Chun Heng
HongYi
Regina
Kally

Desmond Jian Keat KwanWei Sherlyn (haven confirm yet.)

pls inform me if you're bringing more ppl,
need to prepare food!!
and pls ask more ppl to come along! the more the merrier.

everyone shall contribute a food item:
(quantity to be confirm)
-packet drinks (chop by CHUNHENG)
-sandwiches
-potato chips (chop by CONSTANCE)
-cookies (chop by JIN)
-agar agar(chop by ILLENE)
-hotdogs! (chop by KALLY)
-chicken wings? fried rice? beehoon?
-ham(chop by EDWIN)
-1.5L drinks(chop by HONGYI)

other suggestions:
lunchi-meat!, sushi(ready-made), kueh, biscuits, maggi mee(HAHA)

you all can contribute what you wanna bring,
give me a text. i'll confirm and make sure there's enough food for everyone.

and we'll share 1 cake for our lovely Kangrui & Sherlyn.


i'm not sure when we will end, but if you need to leave early you can.
please be punctual all right! latest we will wait will be 9.10am
bring along a set of clothings in any case that we are going to ECP.
and of course undergarments and all you need.
and please reply to my text!!!!!!!!! ):