Writing this post which serves the purpose to my one and only royal reader.
Today I'm gonna express my gratitude to you.
My love for the past 6 years, I'm never the one that does these usually but today's the exception. I feel that I have never given you enough after what you have done for me in the recent years. I am never always the weak one in the relationship, I need to be the winning party during arguments, I'm never the one that said sorry even if I'm at fault. Thank you for being the understanding one. I have insecurities but you're always the one that assured me. I'm sorry for being insensitive to you when I decided to go Taiwan with both my friends. If it was me in my shoes, I wouldn't able to take it. You knew me. You know I don't listen anymore once I had decided. If it was the old you, the consequences.. I wouldn't even have to imagine. Thank you for changing yourself for me. Changing your mindset along with mine. Thank you for including me in your future. Thank you for all the life lessons along the way. Thank you for being there for me. Not knowing how to express love into words when I'm with you. It must be the comfortableness I get when I'm with you. I'm myself when I'm with you. My best friend, my brother, my lover. I promise not to give you any disappointments anymore..
Saturday, April 13
Continuing from the previous post, or if you just happened to read my twitter.
I had already started work a month back! Decision was made just when I was about to sign up for uni course.
As for what I'm working as, it's complicating to explain here but my designation says that I'm an "Operations Officer" it's just about admin stuff, approving, follow-ups. Routine job but there's so much responsibility. Being an adult isn't as easy as what we think. Every step that I made in work, I need to be responsible. A little mistake you made would actually cost the company to lose tens, hundreds, thousands. Not just that, being in an environment which you have to be caution when you speak (i'm really bad in handling this), being able to be in good terms with other organizations, able to socialize, think ahead, witty, street smart. Everything has to be used sparingly. Just like a remedy, each and every person has a customize set. It's just hard to find out to use how much dosage for one.
After so much that I had elaborate, it's just me not being able to handle being adult. I just don't want to grow up so soon. I may lose my friends, I don't even have time for them anymore. I don't know what can I talked to them. It's always 9-6 from mon-fri and I can't even go out during weekdays just because I need to wake up early the following day. I may bored people sooner or later because everything in my mind is about work. People may not understand me or vice versa. You get disconnected with the world. Now I would have to choose to watch the news instead of my doreamon because I need to be able to catch up with the what's going on around the world, I need to be on my toes. I am expected to know a lot. It's just so tiring being who we are suppose to be.. Thinking that things isn't going my way. Isn't at my age, I should be around with my friends still hanging out at Starbucks studying hard for my exams? Should I fantasize over my favorite running man? Shouldn't I have dreams? Dream of travelling around the world, being carefree and stress free.
Trade and Take.
Trade your time and take the money.