没有Alvin Ang的日子，第28天

1oth grade

As I sat there in English class,

I stared at the girl next to me.She was

my so-called 'best friend'. I

stared at her long, silky hair. I

wished she were mine, but she didn't

notice me like that.And I knew it.

After class she walked up to me and

asked me for the notes she had missed

the day before, and I handed them to

her.She said 'thanks' and gave me a

kiss on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I

don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.

11th Grade

The phone rang. It was her on the

other end. She was in tears, mumbling

on and on about how her love had

broke her heart.

She asked me to come over because she

didn't want to be alone, so I

did. As I sat next to her on the sofa,

I stared at her soft eyes,

wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, a

Drew Barrymore movie,and three bags of

chips, she decided to go to sleep. She

looked at me,said 'thanks,' and gave

me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I

don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.

12th Grade

The day before prom she walked to

my locker. 'My date is sick,' she

said. He's not going to go. Well,

I didn't have a date and in 7th grade

we made a promise that if neither

of us had dates we would go together

just as 'best friends,' so we

did.

Prom night, after everything was

over,I was standing at her front door

step. I stared at her. She smiled at me

and stared at me with her crystal

eyes. I want her to be mine, but she

doesn't think of me like that,and I

know it. Then she said, 'I had

the best time,thanks!' and gave me a

kiss on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I

don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.

Graduation Day...

A day passed. A week passed. A

month passed. Before I could blink, it

was graduation day. I watched as

her perfect body floated like an angel

up on stage to get her diploma. I

wanted her to be mine, but she didn't

notice me like that, and I knew

it. Before everyone went home, she came

to me in her smock and hat, and

she cried as I hugged her. Then, she

lifted her head from my shoulder

and said, 'You're my best friend,

thanks!' and gave me a kiss on

the cheek.

I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I

don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.

A Few Years Later...

Now, I sit in the pews of the

church. She is getting married,now. I

watched her say, 'I do' and drive

off to her new life, married to

another man. I wanted her to be

mine but she didn't see me like that,

and I knew it. But before she

drove away, she came to me and

said, 'You came!' She said, 'thanks!'

and kissed me on the cheek.I want to

tell her.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I

don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.

Funeral...

Years pass, and I looked down at

the coffin of the girl who used to be

my best friend.' At the service

they read a diary entry she had wrote

in her high school years.
This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he were mine.
But he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it.
I want to tell him.
I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love him, but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me...
i wish I did too...
i thought to myself, and I cried.

read this! it's super touching :}
i read from girlf's blog and decided to repost it!

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