hey! I'm actually back from Thailand a week back.
but working kinda makes me feel tired and lights off was always at 9.

Thailand trip was absolutely great. Forever makes me feel I'm home.
bought tons of things, almost needed DHL to carry all the things home.
caught up with much of the family members,
suddenly i got a feeling, i want to be like this when I'm old.
I want my daughters, son, grandson, granddaughter to accompany me.
even if i needed a walking stick, seeing them patiently warn me every step i takes.
i bet this is the best reward in my life.
but that's too long a way to go, I never know what could happen tmr. Right?

Working at Noel, somehow great too.
I had made some new friends, and of course.
seeing a DEVIL SUPERVISOR is definitely, *tsk*
cf, guess you know how i feel :/
she's fierce, strict, and i feel she can kill with the sight.
luckily i'm not under her! :D
will be working till 8.30pm from 14 onwards.
meaning, no mahjong, no facebook, no handphone texts, no baby's accompany.
but i planned, all this money i earn probably bring mum and me a good 5 days in Bangkok.
Mareesa, it's my turn to look for you over there. :D
p.s. Mareesa is coming back on the 13. can anyone pls text me by 10 to meet her for lunch on the 13?????

watched New Moon ytd, i would give it a 4/5 because the movie isnt nice without Edward.
i hadn't got a chance to finish reading New Moon either.
i think the ending is just not inappropriate. :/
makes me feel like i wanna watch the next one even more!!!!!
some scene made me think of those times i was with baby,

sometimes i feel that i was force to grow up too fast.
what i have been thru, rather in relationships was just too much for me to handle.
some things that happened wasnt fair to me.

i witness my boyfriend fell in love with another girl,
the pain that he brought to me, was undescrible,
it was more than needles poking you.
it was a feeling that you knew someone that you love would leave you for long.
you will never get to see him ever again,
you will never get to feel his face, touch his face or even share with him things that you used to.

no one's gonna be there to warm your hands when you're cold in a cinema,
no one's gonna hear you complain when you have a fight with your brother,
no one's gonna be there with you thru the night,
i gotta be alone, standing strong.
but somehow, you know he will be back.

isnt all this putting you in a difficult position?
you wanna forget but you wanna remember.

but, i dont blame you, boy.
i'm acutally grateful to you.

i thank you for letting me know what is love,
how do i love someone, how someone could love me as much as i do.
i need to thank you because you had accompany most of my difficult times.
although you weren't much been a help, but i know you love me.
i know we will somehow have a happy ending.

no more pains, no more unhappiness.
we're just be Constance and Alvin.
we are we.
we are going to love each other till 80 years old,
we are going to hold each other hand till old,
you are going to pat me till i sleep and cover me with blankets.
and i'm going to make you feel all of these are worth it.

been together almost 3 years, so much pain, so much happiness.
but, remember all the good times.
we still have a long way to go. :D
i love you baby.

you're exactly my brand of heroine.
i was'nt going to live without you, you're my life.