i did my part as a child,
i told you i wasn't going to make it for the Amath anymore,
but all you do was to say depend on myself.

i get tired of my life, i tried to tell you but you did not really care.
all you did was $ $ $, and all those Totos and 4D.
how freaking tired i am to tell you,
i know what's the best for me, but you did not tried to understand.
what's the use of me getting angry with over nothing, and nothing seems to be done.

so when results came, and if i passed, you all would be jumping for joy.
but that's not what i am capable of doing,
i can get at least a B3 or B4 for my Amath.
rather than E8, C6.
that's not good enough, that's really not good enough.
all you all think is that passing is very good alr,
how about my future? my ambition?
did you all ever sit down and hear me talk about my ambition?
i want to study in aerospace. did you all ever know that?
did you all know that your daughter wants to score 12 points for O' lvl rather than a 20 that considered as a passed?
i want you all to feel proud of me,
what korkor's not capable of, i can do it.
i want to show the world that,
'hey, your daughter is very capable, she's in poly. some more study aerospace ha...'
i know i can, i'm not stupid or retard.
but studying maths on my own, i'm not capable of doing that, not at this point of time.

i'm tired, sick and frustrated.

tsktsk.
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not to think abt it for a moment,

happy one month to me and B.
actually not one month, but, it's okays.
thanks B for pushing me so hard to study,
altho things happened, but i still love you!
i shall stop worrying abt things, and i love you dearest B.


okays, sitting beside bryon au,
wonderful, not so wonderful.
LOL.



a lot of shit to do,
zZz.

i miss baby ):